drowning in a moment of hopelessness

i feel deeply alone
in the middle of people
it hurts deep down
i can't stand it
i want to cry
no energy left
just hurt
crunching my heart
taking my breath away
and the wish
to die
and leave all pain behind

i don't know what's going on
what's happening
i have no clue
never felt that down before

forgive me
for bothering you