a last glimpse

when i close my eyes

i see places from my past

familiar places

but without meaning

i feel betrayed

i feel frightened

i have to open my eyes

before i die

raining into my soul

 life is

never ending pain

with some tears here and there

i think i forgot

the smiles

and how to feel loved.

sensitivities

i don't want

to die

i don't want

to live either

it's all

just hurt

the time has come

a time of change

a time to end all and everything

a time to destroy our past

a time to destroy  our future

a time to say goodbye

disconnected

 i am feeling empty

again

i am feeling lonely

i want to cry, but tears are already dropping from my eyes

i feel useless, i feel unwanted

not needed anymore, if ever

i have this black hole inside me, that's sucking up what i used to be

i have this thoughts of hopelessness

i am losing ground, lost my stand

what's going on

why am i all alone

rotating around my thoughts

tired nausea, lost control and falling

why am i like this

why can't i laugh anymore

all that's left is a life full of boredom

let me escape

let me escape

let me escape

i had enought

memories

in the end
we can't take anything with us
we've got our memories
but even memories fade
i'd like to think
they only fade to make place
for new memories
new memories
memories

a bit of you

we all need
a bit of sunshine
in our hearts

we all need
a bit of fresh wind
in our minds

be a bit for me
i'll be a bit for you

can you hurt me?

i messed up
i messed up so badly i can't believe it myself
i didn't want to
and i have no idea how to fix it
it hurts so badly
it hurts
i want to cut my heart out to stop the hurt
i want to cut my eyes out to stop the tears
i feel lost in my fucked up mind
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt
i didn't want
can you ever forgive me?

Du fehlst

Du fehlst
hier im Zug
bei meiner Seite
an meiner Schulter
bei meinem Herzen

hello world

the air smells sweet
around this time of the year
at least here it does
and it's a nice experience
the breeze is warm
and we want to run around outside
let's have a summer to remember!