can you hurt me?

i messed up
i messed up so badly i can't believe it myself
i didn't want to
and i have no idea how to fix it
it hurts so badly
it hurts
i want to cut my heart out to stop the hurt
i want to cut my eyes out to stop the tears
i feel lost in my fucked up mind
i didn't want to hurt you
i didn't want to hurt
i didn't want
can you ever forgive me?