entertainment?

big step
don't get bored
ready for
the next step
experience
me.

don't get upset
experiencing
the malfunctioning
me.

i will smile for you

i could cry
but i hold back
i don't want to
crying marks endings
i don't want it to end here
there is so much more to explore
so much more to feel
and there is my love
waiting to be accepted
it just can't end here
because
this story just began
and
you are very important to me
and so
i will smile for you

....

i'd like to say i miss you
i'm not sure you'd like to hear it

...

i wonder if i should have said that
i thought i would feel a relieve
now it hurts even more

warum ich ohne Deine Stimme nicht mehr einschlafen will

am anderen Ende des Raumes ist ein dunkles Loch in eine Welt voller unerfüllter Träume die uns zu verschlingen versuchen und nach unserer Hoffnung langen

am anderen Ende des Raumes sitzt ein blauer Vogel und schlägt mit seinen Flügeln die Gefühle in den Wind

am anderen Ende des Raumes kauere ich mich in eine Ecke

am anderen Ende des Raumes

und warte Deine Stimme zu hören
Deine Stimme nimmt die Anspannung von mir
sie heilt mein Herz
heilt mich

ありがとうございました

the lovely light you made me see
the sweet feeling you awakened in me
i thought it's impossible
ありがとうございました

the moments you made me feel save
the bitter hurt i feel when you're not here
i thought it's impossible
ありがとうございました

the loneliness you took away
the longing for you, longing for your smile
i thought it's impossible
ありがとうございました

no one will ever be able to hurt me like you could.

tell me where the unicorns went

mirror of bloom
sorrow of noon
followed of gloom
and you
and you
but you wont
tell me where the unicorns went

it will!

don't be so reasonable
there is nothing reasonable about love
just love
it will be ok

looking at your dream

a dream of you
stabbing my heart with love
my spilled blood
felt like cried tears
before i died
i felt at ease
looking at your smile

damn

i thought i would never grow old
and then it happened

my.question4u

my
question
for you
today:

when was the last time
you had an
overwhelming kissing experiance?

change me

my heart is hurting
the beats are out of sync
i want to cry
but i can't
if i would cry
i would give up
and i need to hope
it's all that i've got left

drowning in a moment of hopelessness

i feel deeply alone
in the middle of people
it hurts deep down
i can't stand it
i want to cry
no energy left
just hurt
crunching my heart
taking my breath away
and the wish
to die
and leave all pain behind

i don't know what's going on
what's happening
i have no clue
never felt that down before

forgive me
for bothering you

magic

ok
whoever placed that spell on me
please
remove it

and why, again?

i have feelings in my chest
which hurt
but i don't know why
i should knew such feelings
but i seem to have forgotten
i can't find them in a single memory
why does it hurt so bad
why can't i remember
and why am i crying, again?

Nonsens

würdest du mich lieben,
wenn du mich lieben könntest?

könntest du mich lieben,
wenn du mich lieben würdest?

warum?

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